I've been trying to figure out what to write about. I read back through some old posts and realized I had said a whole lot of nothing, for a long time. Now I'm a bit overwhelmed trying to decide how to document 3+ years of my life. What comes first?
December of 2009 I have 12 posts - some about my life and family, some were About Me quiz's. Then everything drastically drops off with a post or 2 a month. Most of them quick little 'filler' posts. At that time I was dealing with my depression again - I felt like I was just wading through quicksand every day.
In April of 2010 there are 2 posts. 1 is mostly about the inversion sprain that I had experienced with my ankle and both of them tell of me leaving my now ex-husband. After that my life got scattered and crazy. Sometimes I had internet, I worked a lot, I spent time without my kids while they were with their dad and I was working a lot to try to get back on my feet. I did a lot of soul searching and and discovered how amazing my kids are - I became a better mom because I had to fight so hard...and I'm grateful for that. In July 2010 I wrote This post - where I read and am transported back to that time and can feel the pain all over again - is a great example of what life was like for me.
In December 2010 I lost my job at a local theater. I loved that job and I loved my boss. It was a great way to get back into the workforce after being a stay-at-home mom. I was sad to see it go, but in a way it opened a door for me to a MUCH better job :). In March of 2011, I started working for an amazing company that I'm still blessed to be a part of. I've worn a few different hats and I am so grateful that I get to be a part of what we do there.
In May of 2011 I started living in a weekly-rental motel, the first step to getting back on my feet, and experienced the horror of bed bugs. They derailed my progress for a little bit, but after wrapping my new king size bed in plastic, taping it up with duct tape and putting it in a hot storage shed for a summer, I have been able to use it again.
January of 2012 I conquered my fear and rode in a helicopter for the first time. In May of 2012 I was hospitalized for a week with pneumonia. In July of 2012 I wrote about getting my passport.
What I didn't write about in June 2010 is that Lars was here for the first
time. He and I met in person, he met the kids and my mother... It was
an amazing experience that I didn't document and as I sit here now, I
can't understand why not. I guess what I really need to do is start
with June 2010 and work my way forward and fill in the holes :). I think writing about what he and I have been going through as a couple, and as a new family, will be a nice direction to take this blog :).
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