Saturday, June 27, 2015

Overwhelmed

I've been trying to figure out what to write about.  I read back through some old posts and realized I had said a whole lot of nothing, for a long time.  Now I'm a bit overwhelmed trying to decide how to document 3+ years of my life.  What comes first?

December of 2009 I have 12 posts - some about my life and family, some were About Me quiz's.  Then everything drastically drops off with a post or 2 a month.  Most of them quick little 'filler' posts.  At that time I was dealing with my depression again - I felt like I was just wading through quicksand every day.  

 In April of 2010 there are 2 posts. 1 is mostly about the inversion sprain that I had experienced with my ankle and both of them tell of me leaving my now ex-husband.  After that my life got scattered and crazy. Sometimes I had internet, I worked a lot, I spent time without my kids while they were with their dad and I was working a lot to try to get back on my feet. I did a lot of soul searching and and discovered how amazing my kids are - I became a better mom because I had to fight so hard...and I'm grateful for that.  In July 2010 I wrote This post - where I read and am transported back to that time and can feel the pain all over again - is a great example of what life was like for me.

In December 2010 I lost my job at a local theater.  I loved that job and I loved my boss.  It was a great way to get back into the workforce after being a stay-at-home mom.  I was sad to see it go, but in a way it opened a door for me to a MUCH better job :).  In March of 2011, I started working for an amazing company that I'm still blessed to be a part of.  I've worn a few different hats and I am so grateful that I get to be a part of what we do there.

In May of 2011 I started living in a weekly-rental motel, the first step to getting back on my feet, and experienced the horror of bed bugs.  They derailed my progress for a little bit, but after wrapping my new king size bed in plastic, taping it up with duct tape and putting it in a hot storage shed for a summer, I have been able to use it again.

January of 2012 I conquered my fear and rode in a helicopter for the first time. In May of 2012 I was hospitalized for a week with pneumonia. In July of 2012 I wrote about getting my passport.

Then silence.....

What I didn't write about in June 2010 is that Lars was here for the first time.  He and I met in person, he met the kids and my mother...  It was an amazing experience that I didn't document and as I sit here now, I can't understand why not.  I guess what I really need to do is start with June 2010 and work my way forward and fill in the holes :).  I think writing about what he and I have been going through as a couple, and as a new family, will be a nice direction to take this blog :). 




Sunday, June 14, 2015

Boxes of Fun

Back in October, for Lars' birthday, I bought him a subscription to Loot Crate. It is this awesome nerd subscription box that comes every month. He has gotten a new t-shirt nearly every month and stuff from Walking Dead to D&D.  Everyone here is so excited when it comes in - absolutely worth the money.

Even though I would give just about anything for my own Loot Crate subscription (momma wants some t-shirts too), right now I just can't afford it.  I did find a girly thing to get.

I know, I know - I'm not very girly.  Even though my desk area at work looks like I might be...

Wait, wait, wait...that is what it DID look like.  My fellow managers decided to decorate my new office space when I recently moved back to IT.  I'm the only girl in that department....I got asked more than once if it was my birthday.  Nope......not my birthday......

I've toned it down a little more. The name is all that remains.


ANYWAY, I desperately wanted my own monthly fun box and I found one called Ipsy. Its a 'Glam' bag.  What it boils down to is a makeup bag, some make-up or other beauty product and perhaps a brush every now and then.  Its half the cost of the Loot Crate.

I just got the bag for June today (its my second bag) and thought I'd take some pics of it.  It had been a while since I'd used my tabletop studio so I got it out and snapped a few pics.


This month I got a body butter that I can't wear to work because its Vanilla scented (it gives a co-worker migraines), brown eyeshadow, turquoise eyeliner (wha??), nail polish and foundation primer.  I have no idea what foundation primer is...and I'm a little concerned about eyeshadow that is in crayon form.  I think I'll give this a couple more months to see what kind of variations I get.  Maybe it will inspire me to be more of a girl.....:)

I still wish it was a Loot Crate....I mean, look at this stuff!!







A lot of stuff is missing - like all of the t-shits, a cool watch with numbers that are hidden until you tap the face, a blow-up crown, a pair of Groot socks, 8-bit styled sunglasses and a D&D bow-tie. You can see that here.....you can also see where it went...


In short, every month I get a girly beauty bag and Lars gets a kick-butt, awesome nerd box and I'm jealous.  The up side is that neither of the kids are begging me for my stuff :).

Coming back up for air

Yesterday was an unpleasant day :(. I ended up leaving work early because of my stupid headache.  With the pain going into my neck and shoulders...ugh, it hurt to move.  I really planned to post yesterday but it would have been quite sad.  By quite sad, I mean more sad then this post will be :).

The piece of crap car I drive is still scaring the crap out of me.  I was able to make an appointment with the place I'm getting it from.  The lady sounded concerned and wanted to see it...not that it means she will help me though.  If they didn't check all this out before I got it, then I'm not sure I trust their judgement now.  I'll let you all know when I have some answers about that one.  BUT, today Lars and I drove over and bought new brake pads so when a friend of mine has time to fix the brakes, its all ready for him.

Wow...that was a boring intro.

Here's a flower-type thing to make it better...


Lars and I took another walk around the apartments today and I shot this. I took a couple others I'd like to share...



I just had to show off a smile from Maggie :).

I enjoy taking the .4 mile walk with him, which is only a lap, its just hard for me to get into it.  I quit smoking back in November of last year - for good this time - and my lungs aren't very strong still. I actually think it has more to do with my allergies.  When I'm not having a flare-up I seem to be able to go longer and faster.
Either way, I need to pick it up over the next year.  I'm going to be participating in my first 5k!  Its an insane idea, but it gives me a goal to work for.  Well, other than being healthier, showing my kids a better way...you know, all that other stuff :).
The idea for the 5k, which I never thought I would ever do, came from a co-worker. We started a 'Biggest Loser' type challenge at work  and money is a big motivator, but she took it a step further and at first I laughed, but I'm tired of laughing. I'm tired of my health being a joke to me, or anyone else.

Lars and I are trying to eat healthier and I've got my kids on board, for the most part. Ike is in football this year so with his workouts and everything else, his eating won't be affected. He is a growing, athletic boy - I'm not worried about him right now.
Lylli has been having issues at school with bullies and it just makes me sad for her.  I want her to be happy no matter what...but I want her health to be important to her too.  She is having fun finding low carb options for us and she's been making good choices when she's here. She wants to do the 5k with us so, now that summer has started, she will be swimming a lot and going on walks with us.

                                                                 Me and my Mini-me
Poor thing...she looks so much like me :P. 

Thursday, June 11, 2015

Not So Great

Well today wasn't the greatest I've had in a while.  I've been fighting a migraine which is most likely from my allergies flaring up again. Along with the fun stuff that has happened since the last time I was on, I've become friends with Flonase.

 Remember that giant rabbit from the last post?  I'm fairly certain that I'm allergic to him.  If I don't take my allergy meds every day I get migraines, which wonderfully lead to muscle aches, and my eye waters and then seals shut.  I'm incredibly attractive during that fun...let me tell you.  So much so that I've been affectionately called "Fart Eye" at work :P.  The thought was that my magical bunny farted in my eye and made me more awesome.

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Um....no.  They don't....

So, as I was saying, I ran out of my allergy meds yesterday and all it has taken is 1 day of not having it for the headache to start my right eye was watering a bit.  Ugh.

He's cute though.  (That's not him in the pic, by the way.  WAY to small to be our Fergal.)

Found this and I really enjoy it.....



I hope you enjoyed it too.  I'm off to bed, hoping that this headache stops overnight. I promise something better tomorrow.