Reflections on the Water

2 Sundays ago we took the kids (we being us and our best friends) to the lake. It was Lylli's first time fishing and the first time I've fished since I was a kid. She is an excellent caster - Like a Pro, Ya'll!!



This was Isaac's second time fishing. He was the proud user of a HUGE pole. He only nearly hooked his sister once :). Oh, and this face he's making - I SWEAR my son does smile. Really, he does. I snapped the photo seconds before his face lit up. Isn't he incredibly handsome anyway folks??



I don't understand the 'Conan O'Brian' thing his hair is doing in the middle. Oh wait, yeah I do. My mom was the last one to touch his head with scissors. UGH.
After we all got home we watched GI Joe - FanTastic Movie!! - and Lylli made us go outside afterwards to let her ride her bike. Now that she's over the fear of falling off from 2 feet off the ground she rides whenever she can.
The sky was absolutely incredible so I'll close this with 2 pictures of the sky :).





The sky actually looked like that. Breathtaking. I just wish I'd had my wide-angle lens on the camera so I could've caught more.

Fessing Up

Wanna know why I've been gone?

Because my depression has come back with a vengeance. I didn't want this blog to be 'poor me'...but I didn't want to neglect it either.

Its been building for a while and has be incredibly worse the last few days. I can't seem to function and I feel like an empty shell. Even now, I don't want to get into it. I'm really lost right now and struggling.

I broke down tonight in front of my husband - who just stood there and stared at me until he finally interrupted me to say "I gotta use the bathroom" and walked off. I'll admit that knowing what to say would be hard for anyone. I'm sure he feels as helpless as I do hopeless...it just would have been nice to get a hug, you know?

Its everything...being broke, my weight, the house, the kids, the lack of work, no enthusiasm for anything at all. I've read more books in the last 2 weeks than I have all year and don't remember 9/10ths of what I read. I don't even know if they were 'good'.

However...I did laugh tonight. It wasn't big - but it existed. I was sad when it hit me that I think it was the first time I laughed honestly in a long time...but a teensy, tiny bit hopeful because I was able to do it at all.

If you pray, please pray for me. Its really bad this time.

Introducing Babs

Babs (her name was Lucy) has been with us for about a week. She's a great addition so far - it helps that she is litter box trained. We let her run around the living room at night and I can't help giggling and saying "Sean...Sean...there's a Rabbit! in our living room!!" I'm like a little kid :).



The kids love her - obviously.



Chance?



Well, he doesn't know what to think of her. He is a mix between ignoring her, chasing her and wanting to hump her. He sniffs her butt - that's about his only interest at the moment.



Apparently...she does share one of my bad habits. Bad bunny.



And...she's kinda a camera whore - unless she's drinking her water and then she turns all "Bunny Diva".

Oh..and Babs = Big A$$ Bunny. She's as big as the dog, yo!

A Few Songs I Love

Here are a few videos of songs that I'm constantly listening to right now...thought I'd share. You might find something you like too :).